my own ed vs Edwin

Sometimes I feel like I have a good side and bad side thing going on and its not even a evil bad side. Its just not my good side. I mean the good side cares for anyone remotely important in my life. I’m willing to do anything for these people to make them happy. However, I feel like the bad side takes advantage of this by making me feel like I have to do thingas to make them happy sometimes resulting in other people getting hurt or even myself.